.choice
i was driving, today, with a three-year-old i’m babysitting for the weekend in my backseat. in the middle of small-texas-town college station, i saw a kindergarten class of orthodox jewish kids walking down the street, with their tassels and kippas.
i know i’m in college station, far from israel, and not involved in the jewish community here at all. but, i think, i had a moment where i was close to God’s heart, as i saw those kids walking down the street toward the park. i’m not sure what it was… people talk about God given them ‘a heart’ for some thing, some place, or some one… i’ve really only experienced that with random things at random times. if it’s what i think it is, anyway.
strange thing is, i’ve never been in a moving-vehicle accident, but my thoughts were abruptly interrupted when I was almost T-d by a car who ignored a stopsign. what the heck.
lately (past year or so, now) i’ve been wanting to get a better grip on the spiritual side of things. people comfort themselves by saying ‘there’s a reason for everything…’ but that’s a little lame. i would rather take it a step further, and actually be involved in the spiritual goings-on in the world.
…i want to pray more. i’ve always highly valued meaningful prayers, seeking in earnest God’s will, or wanting to ‘super-bless’ someone… but really, prayer is talking to God; asking Him things. seems like doing more of that would be way more natural than once-in-a-while big ones.
…i want to be more sensitive to the God’s Spirit, who is Holy. i know He’s around. i know He’s in me. and i know He’s in certain other people. if i know all that- you’d think i’d be more aware of, or pay attention to, what He does, and the moves He makes.
… i want to choose to do these things. they take time, and they take effort, and I’m lazy. i often say ‘i choose’ to do something, and then i slack off. what good is in that? if i say i’m going to do something, i will do it. no quitting.
i’m going to buy a nikon soon.
